Today in my car the song my dad always deemed my song came on. Its called I Keep Looking by Sara Evans and is about someone who always wants what they don't have. I kept thinking about how this always has been an issue in my life. I struggle to be satisfied with what I have or am going through, even when what I have is WAY more than what I need. Instead of this song being a reminder of my teenage years, today it pointed to a wicked area of my heart that God has yet to take over. I have been doing the NEXT devotional series with The Village and the first few were about reflecting and being thankful for the things Christ has done over the past year. God has been so gracious in my life this year and has provided me with new and wonderful friendships and a chance to make a mark as Philanthropy chair in Delta Zeta. However all that is forgotten when I think about what I don't have, or my desire to graduate and have a family.
My prayer for this coming year is that I would find joy and satisfaction in what Christ has for me IN THE MOMENT. He is moving so fiercely in my life but if I am focused on my earthly desires I will miss the joy that He has for my heart.
